It's been some time since I've felt compelled to share a lot of what goes through my mind and how i've been experiencing life. I hesitated for a long time in sharing, for several reasons as I look back. One is that it's hard to find a scenario or experience that someone hasn't already had that you can relate to in life. So then I asked myself, why share my own? Well, it finally occurred to me that even if it seems like the same experience may have taken place, it was never to the same person, at the same time, in the same circumstances. So seeing how it fits in, or is dealt with in my own circumstances may help identify for others connected to what I am doing in life.
What really had me finally open to sharing things is how one person could tell you the same thing as someone else, but it goes through one ear and out the other. Or you're closed to hearing it from that person or viewpoint, so it's lost on you. Whereas even if it's the same message, and perhaps even the same words, you will accept and connect with it coming from someone else. What if I'm that someone else? What if you finally hear it from me?
This has been a super intense month. It's gotten more intense as the month has gone on, I will leave it at that for now.
In October of 2013 I had put together a video that followed a weekend of my life. A Friday through Sunday. Though fairly typical in regards to the amount of time delegated to each activity, Chiropractic, Skate Skiing, Cycling, and time on the Trail ( especially in offseason ), there was quite an epic day thrown in there. A 8 hour ride on the mountain bike from Scottsdale to Sedona via forest service roads. Have a look see if you've not seen it: ( Video Link )
When I thought of all the people that I take care of, and how they believe in my knowledge and skill to care for them, how they exchange their own hard earned money to do that. I wanted to continue to give back to the community. To have that money invested into something special, I wanted to give back. Tinkering around with the idea of how and where the actual energy comes from to be alive, for instance how plants produce the energy that we need. We harvest them, maybe transport them, maybe process them, but we consume them and it provides the means necessary to sustain our lives. Now, when you do MASSIVE, and I mean massive amounts of training and calories burned, you place a great demand to meet that requirement. I asked myself about that demand, and what was I doing with it. Was I serving people? Was I making a difference? Ultimately, was what I was asking from the Earth to provide used in a manner that will have an impact not only at this time, but in the future.
Certainly quite the topic, and perhaps more of just a question to ponder for some time, rhetorical in nature. Or to maybe ask ones self as we choose the things we do each day.
I settled on finding balance. Because as a Chiropractor that is what I am looking for in a healthy spine. That is what I am looking for in regards to my athletic ability and capacity as a cyclist. That is what I am looking for in my life. We filmed the weekend, it documents what takes place each day, showing the preparation and maintenance of both body and machine. It is subtle, because I wasn't looking to preach to people. Just do the actions, and then one could see how they are implemented. Also, we wanted to capture the beauty of nature, and how we are one with it.
There were friends and patients that spoke over the images, sharing their stories. These people, among countless others, inspire me and we were looking to share that. We wanted multiple voices in the hopes that someone could identify with at least one, if not a number of what was said.
With some of the intensity and thoughts at this time in my life, I went back and watched the video from where I am now. A few things i'd do differently, but remember how I did the video from the heart for the community? It almost felt like I did the video for me, in this moment July 31st, 2016 for where I am in life now.
The first line, is actually me. ( after my intro )
"These wonderful people in my life that enhance it and inspire me, how can I get those people to inspire you? I think thats what it's more about" - Me
Wow, still connecting with this. You see what you want to see, and the beauty and inspiration in others for me, I need to really keep bringing that out in myself, so that you may bring that out in yourself and others.
"when you get a chance to help somebody, the rewards you get greatly exceed what we could be paid." - Dr. Ely
Giving without expectation of anything in return. Giving is already the reward.
"If that's what your intention in life is, you find time to do things that keep you balanced." - CT
No question, another example is "show me a mans checkbook, and I'll show you his values". Here's where we have to find what our own definition of balance is. Once we find it, we must be doing the things necessary to actually make it happen. If you don't know what it is, keep seeking it. IF you feel like you're on track, I've recently opened up to the fact I can go back to the basics and look to see if I'm still on track with that. Constantly refining to make sure I am.
"cuz it's a very painful sport ultimately, to be at that level of fitness where you race and compete. it's not healthy, i think, for normal people :) "-AE
For what he's talking about, this sport of elite cycling, there is no question. This is what I feel compelled to share with this community that is hearing my voice. I will do as much as I can to give you the information and resources to make sound decisions to not have what you love the most, end up hurting you in the long run physically. It would be special if I can do that in person, but there is likely people reading this in other states or countries that I cannot reach. But will give info so that you may seek it in your area.
"you know I try to be lost in the moment, it's about having awareness, but not being bound." -MC
Oh man, just the way he says this, his delivery. Incredible. Although I know him well, he's a special soul, so I hope that translates as it comes across in the video. This here is such a spectacular line. Just being so present, connected, grateful, aligned, or any other adjective you can think of. This is it, one with why in all you do and why you're here.
"biking is full of oxymoron, you know I forget the stress of the day, and then all of a sudden you remember things, you can focus better. that's what keeps me going, it's a great relaxation tool." - MZ
Isn't it?! We all have our go-to activities like this, at least I hope. ( If you don't, keep searching until you find one or a hundred )
"I push because you know, I see no alternative. To me there is no option."-LA
Wow, again this is so powerful, but maybe more for me because i know the story of this person well.
"We are placed on this earth for a purpose. Every moment is a gift and we receive that from being connected to the earth. And in essence we have one earth, we have one life, what are we going to do with it?" -TS
Phenomenal stuff. We can all have differing definitions and opinions on what being connected to earth means and what we are placed on earth for a purpose for. But the takeaway for me is that these words help raise that awareness of how special it is, and to ask the question what are you making of it?
"It's a beautiful word, Mitakuye Oyasin, and it's Lakota for were all connected, and were all brothers and sisters." - DB
It says it all, doesn't it? Have a listen (Mitakuye Oyasin by Nahko live in PHX) I was able to attend this concert with someone special. I cannot explain how powerful it was. But, as I play this video, I can still feel that. Chills. As he calls in the directions and calls on his Grandfather for guidance, in 2008 when I was going through a massive change in life moving out to Arizona with no friends or family. Starting a life out there, my grandfather passed away. As I returned from Michigan following the funeral, I did the same that he could help me in guiding of my choices and align me with my purpose. I know anyone that has connected with seeking guidance and feeling that presence can relate to what I am talking about.
"So for me its so important to disconnect form the rat race and the go, go, go. So you're one with nature there. And it's so difficult to do in a gridlock city, concrete city. and it's so important to be able to experience that and ground yourself, so you can come back and be fully present at work or at home with your husband or wife or your kids, or you family and friends. that makes you a better person, so you are grounded to see the important things in life." -Me
Right? The trick is making sure you do express that to those you love and to what is important in your life.
I am currently on the campus of Southern Utah University in the dorm rooms. Tapping and pecking away at the keyboard the night before the Tour of Utah starts. (Tour of Utah) We arrived a few days early to get acclimated to the climate and make sure everything is dialed in on the bikes and equipment. We've done a few rides as a team but one of the days I continued on for another 2 hours up the mountain. Trying to keep a clear head and focus on the week ahead.
Like I previously stated I've been reluctant to verbalize things as of late, but I'll try to articulate some of the reasons I use the bicycle to connect with what I do. I may not have all the words to do so, and some time down the line I'll revisit this like I did the video, and would want to change some words here and there. But, It's true for me in this moment, with the experiences I've had to this point.
Think about when you ride and are present with what is happening actually even taking place to be riding? For instance, where that ability is coming from, where that energy is coming from, and how that vitality is expressed through us. I cannot help but feel just how blessed and lucky I am to be expressing life like that. So bloody connected and grateful. There is such a guilt, if that's the right word, at times in wondering WHY do I in particular get to have this ? I can only tell myself I am supposed to, and with this, I am supposed to give back with it.
With cycling, there is an aspect of lateral acceleration that we tap into, making us feel really good. Basically our nervous systems connection to the center of the earth, tapping into the gravitational pull. We have a neurological mechanism that is stimulated with acceleration. It detects our movement relative to the center of the earth. We can tap into that, and almost meditate on it, putting us into the zone. Once tapped and tuned into this, we can (at least I do) get to experience a sort of divinity. What do I possibly mean by that? I'm not sure I can completely articulate it at this time, but it's an incredible connection and when you do you can meditate on it and connect to it.
For instance, with that connection, as I rode through the aspen trees. The wind was hitting them, causing them to rustle. I couldn't help but feel like the sound of a crowd was cheering me on. In essence, you're being cheered on that path you're taking. That it's the right one, and why I'm doing it is from the right place. These opportunities keep coming because it is to be, and I'm supposed to give the knowledge I gain out here along with my schooling, to everyone.
When I'm struggling on the climbs, or against the wind, it's similar to the little struggles in life. I have nowhere to escape, I'll push through it, feeling every aspect. And I'll make it, present along that entire part of the journey. Just then, the wind pushes you from behind, and it's a helping hand to again let me know.
So much has taken place, but ultimately it has led to that feeling or courage that was needed to share some thoughts and insights. I don't want to doubt myself, but as I look to grow and be a better person, I do understand that some things come in time. While others come at you quickly. Always looking to be on point, I check in that I am. With that, I also now understand there are other ways to check in and be in tune with it. Different than those I typically have gone to. And those other ways, and ways I may not even be aware of now, will only enhance that connection. I urge you, if you've made it this far :), to do the same. Tune in, inward, outward and any which way. Have a tribe around you to keep you on point. And hopefully they provide that support for you to launch from.
Thanks for reading and enjoy the photos below, I know you'll get out of this what you will. Check back another time and see if you get something else.